June 13th, John gives me his first p17 shot! yeah, I no longer have to give it to myself!
June 14th, I reach my 19th week of pregnancy, after this week I will be half way done and enter into a whole new phase of pregnancy I haven't experienced yet!
I have reached a landmark every week in my pregnancy since the moment I found out I conceived. It's just so surreal to look back at all the tough things I have overcome to get to this point. The strict monitoring that I'm so used to will finally end and we will be into the "normal" pregnancy risks and complications after this Fridays appointment. I have had OB appointments every other week since week 10 to check my cervical length trans-vaginally and make sure everything is staying put. So far everything has been picture perfect. At 16 weeks I started taking 17-hydroxyprogesterone shots weekly to prevent preterm labor. Even though I do not have a history of it, they want to be safe then sorry. The physician approved to let me do the shots myself. This week, I was having a horrible time giving it to myself, as it has to be given in the buttocks. John is deathly afraid of needles, but somehow got the strength to inject me. I'm so thankful that he's able to administer it now, as the bigger I get, the more impossible the task. After my 20 week anatomy check and last cervical check, I'll feel a considerable weight will have been lifted. We're now in territory we've never seen before, and I'm not afraid of new challenges!
At 19 weeks in 2012 is when I found out I was going to deliver Mia early. We made it to 20 weeks, and then she was born and left this world. It's hard to imagine that next month, had she lived, I would have a 2 year old daughter running around! The one thing that I long for the most is to hear her voice. I think about it frequently. I have come to terms that nothing in this life is truly ours, even our children. They are borrowed miracles which we have the pleasure of nurturing here on earth. But alas, everything must be given back, everything has it's season. Mia has taught me about living in every moment. I know the value of days, hours, minutes and seconds. She taught me how to consciously chose my friends and relationships to the highest caliber, because my days are numbered, just like hers were, so I chose to be HAPPY while I'm still here. She also made me realize that I want to spend my days learning, growing and loving. I am thankful and humble for each lesson and each blessing I may receive.
Isn't it amazing what two little feet can do when they touch your heart!...
